When i was a bit younger, i thought that what every couple needs to last a relationship is just love. But as i jump from one relationship to another, i realize that feelings fade. It’s not enough because once the flame dies i am off again to find a new one. I was the kind of person who flirts a lot even though i am committed with someone. I was always looking for that excitement and lust in every girl that i meet. It’s always one after the other. Moving on when the desire for flesh fades.

Everything changed when i met a girl who is very interesting and tough to crack. When i met her, the lust is simply not there. All that i could think of was “i need to know her and unravel the mystery that surrounds her.” I didn’t think of what she looks like naked or what’s under that hoodie. The only desire was to get to know her.

Eventually, i got a chance to know her fears, dreams, history and character. One by one every puzzle fits. Then that’s only when the feelings started to grow. Day by day there’s more of her i get to know. I was there when she was so high up and never left her side when she was down. I stayed and continued to unravel who she is and love her even more.

Then here is when it’s also a choice than just a feeling. Everything dropped to it’s lowest. I honestly wanted to find someone else but i chose not too. We knew it would be normal and boring and we still pushed through it. I knew she would be crazy as fuck but i still risked it. I knew that it would be really difficult for me to open up all of her doors and fully give in but I’m still trying every key i have to unlock her. She’s really stubborn and it reminds me of me.

When that feeling fades it’s always fun to do new things together. There’s always another adventure to discover, another fight to battle and more and more of memories to share. When you find that one person, giving up is never an option. Every step is a struggle but every step is also worth it. It’s always between choosing to stay or walk away from someone who means the world to us.

Some people or a lot of you would actually say that i am crazy as well to stay. Indeed i am. Who is sane when it comes to love anyway?